The unfolding (2021)

Life, as they say, is rarely simple. I've always yearned for a life that was free of complications, but the universe clearly had other plans. Still, above all else, I want my life to be a source of inspiration for others.

Growing up, my biggest dream was to be an actress. The thought of embodying different characters, stepping outside myself, was incredibly appealing, especially for someone as naturally timid as I was.

I truly believed acting would be my ticket out of my shell. That dream, however, hit a wall when my film school application was rejected in my matric year. Suddenly, my path forward was unclear, I had to think of other options and at that moment I didn't have any.

2020 was rough but 2021 was tougher.

2021 was a year of realizing the importance of doing something with your life. Mind you I was fresh out of High School. Facing rejection from many institutions and workplaces. Plus, I just moved to a new town so you can imagine how foreign and confused I must've felt. That year was a sharp wake-up call, forcing me to confront the urgency of building a life for myself.

My peers were either in school or working, and I couldn't help but wonder, "Why not me?" Life after matric truly throws you into the deep end, revealing the raw truths of the world and fostering a new understanding of others' choices.

The household behaviour changes. You lose friends because they have lives. For me school wasn't even an option for me. I had to find a job asap but without an impressive CV, I couldn't even get my foot in the door. I slowly fell in a circle of feeling like I am not good enough. But I wasn't going to give up on myself like that. I stepped outside and faced the world, I explored the town, went to places I never went before, talked to people asked questions found answers and made a decision. 

And the decision was to VOLUNTEER AT A RECREATION CENTRE! I know maybe you weren't expecting that. But yes, I was there for 2 months and that was the best decision I made in the whole of 2021.

Firstly, I got outside of my shell and was courageous for asking the opportunity. Secondly, I got to socialize and feel impactful and involved in something great - playing games, teaching and catering Primary School kids. For once I felt good and hopeful about the future. 

I made contacts and got distracted to the actual fact that my life was a mess, and I was new in town, I felt very much belonging and secured. 

That's the thing about me, I like being involved in meaningful things, love knowledge and love asking direct questions - I'm a curious person by nature and I love it, it got me to places.

My journey is packed with experiences - emotional, physical, mental, financial, and spiritual - far too much for one sitting. But this is just the beginning; you'll witness it all unfold.